I had a great summer and had very few if any depressed days. It was going so well I met with my therapist and we didn’t schedule any more appointments because I felt great! 3 days later it all hits hard and I have a feeling it’s gonna stick around. Yay.
I find it hilarious that people constantly tell me they are my friend and they are there for me but then I spend all my time watching them ignore me and hang out with other people. I could handle not being invited to hang out with them if you still hung out with me sometimes.. and the worst part is that this is the truth with literally 90% of my “friends”. I can’t wait for next year when I just have all new friends because it’s so obvious that all my current friends don’t actually like me. Half of them only talk to me when they find out I still talk to the one person who actually still cares about me, just to tell me not to talk to him. Like.. back the fuck off he’s a better friend to me than you, despite what you think about him.
I could use this tonight — well, every night — but more so tonight.